I just went through a bunch of things. This bunch of things bring back a lot of memories. Believe it all not, I'm now done with the five years in secondary school. From now on, everyone would be heading their own way. Everyone has their own things to be done, including me. Oh well, to be honest I don;t know what am I going to do next. I feel so lost. You know, after so many years of school I had already fitted myself in the schooling day routine. Waking up at 6am for school, putting my school uniform on, putting my shoes on and get into the car, carrying the school bag on my back walking into the school. I am already missing all those stuff that I used to do everyday. Chit-chatting in class and making noise while teacher was teaching! Great moments to be treasured. Not to forget, those crazy things that we did, all the crazy videos. I am so going to miss all of that really really bad. Facing the world after this, is it a good thing? Or is it a bad thing? IDK...
So, I went through stuffs just now. Mostly are stuffs about 2 years back. How I went through the ups and downs. Thinking back about everything that happened, I realized I had changed a lot if I was to compare myself now with the me 2 years before. How much I "suffered", how I felt it was the end of my life. I think I really faced depression back then. :O People should have fed me Barbiturates! :P Well, I was really immature back then. Everything I saw showed how childish I was. Oh well, I am still immature now :P But, I am trying to change myself. :) By learning to see things in a different way. Bad things might turn into good things, depending on how one look at it, depending on the ability of one to accept it, depending on how one treats it as a challenge that was given by God. It varies depending on each individual.
I was really a stupid girl. Seriously, really stupid. When I looked back at those old stuffs, I kept asking myself, why the F*** did I do all that?!?! Why the F*** was I so depressed?!?! Oh well, I don't know. O.O Immature mind with immature thinking. Heeehh.. :3 Throughout these years, I learned something really important. Don't look back at the things that had already happened, look forward to what is coming into your life next. Who knows, you might see a miracle. :)
Oh well, I am really excited and looking forward to what's coming into my life! I welcome all of them with big hugs and big smiles! :D
So, I went through stuffs just now. Mostly are stuffs about 2 years back. How I went through the ups and downs. Thinking back about everything that happened, I realized I had changed a lot if I was to compare myself now with the me 2 years before. How much I "suffered", how I felt it was the end of my life. I think I really faced depression back then. :O People should have fed me Barbiturates! :P Well, I was really immature back then. Everything I saw showed how childish I was. Oh well, I am still immature now :P But, I am trying to change myself. :) By learning to see things in a different way. Bad things might turn into good things, depending on how one look at it, depending on the ability of one to accept it, depending on how one treats it as a challenge that was given by God. It varies depending on each individual.
I was really a stupid girl. Seriously, really stupid. When I looked back at those old stuffs, I kept asking myself, why the F*** did I do all that?!?! Why the F*** was I so depressed?!?! Oh well, I don't know. O.O Immature mind with immature thinking. Heeehh.. :3 Throughout these years, I learned something really important. Don't look back at the things that had already happened, look forward to what is coming into your life next. Who knows, you might see a miracle. :)
Oh well, I am really excited and looking forward to what's coming into my life! I welcome all of them with big hugs and big smiles! :D
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